Tempted To Close Shop

Yesterday a dear fellow blogging sister and I were talking about permanently closing down our little cyberspace kingdoms.

Why? Well first of all, we both feel that posting, even if just once a week, takes up an unnecessary amount of time and energy not only due to the time it takes to pen our thoughts but also because once that little blurb is up, we become slaves to our inboxes. Who’s going to comment today? Why did I have 9 comments last week and only 2 this time? Why doesn’t Jo Smo ever come around anymore?

Secondly, there’s the vulnerability factor of blogging. We both feel squeamishly uncomfortable with how open and available we make our lives and/or thoughts to a sometimes ambiguous public. Add the fact that our readers, whether they realize it or not, form an opinion of us as bloggers and we then feel constant pressure to live up to that image…I the poignant thinker/writer, she the star mom/hospitable homemaker. Only a tiny, tidy facet of our lives is characterized but it becomes the basis of who we feel we must be when we write and thus pleasure can become a chore.

A third discouragement at least for me is that I really feel that as my blog has failed in the purposes I had for it. I knew nothing would come at once but with the time, thought and energy I have often spent in a post hoping to generate something seemingly relevant or thought provoking, it has obviously not caught on. I honestly am so thankful for those readers of mine that faithfully come around (kudos to Mella and Neo:) …especially as I have been so shamefully poor in my posting regularity both hear and to your blogs but it still remains that I absolutely yearn to feel Letter-Rip has a purpose and can earn discussion. To have discussions on this blog and thus to feel more philosophical posts were worth while would be incredible!

These are all reasons to quit but I believe that my sister and I should not let the pressures and vulnerabilities we may feel defeat us but rather continue to nurture our humble forums for the sake of our enjoyment if nothing else.

I also believe that as wives and mothers (well, almost the latter on my part anyways;) it is healthy to have an outletwhere we can derive strength, encouragement and confidence from using our writing abilities.

As I was reminded of today after reading “The Awakening” by Kate Chopin for school, our individual gifts and talents for which we derrive pleasure should be expended as much for our own enjoyment as for that of others. In this sense we do not have to be performers, limited by what we feel are others expectations, but we can just be little people doing what we like to do and that is freeing!

Here’s to many more posts!

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13 Responses to Tempted To Close Shop

  1. jana says:

    Susanna, I do check your blog regularly and would comment more if I wasn’t spending so much of my time mothering a precious little girl. I for one am thankful you are NOT closing shop and look forward to more of your posts in the future—whatever purpose they serve. Love ya girl!

  2. bchallies says:

    Susanna, Your mother loves reading what you have to say…Keep at it, even for the discipline, and see what God does with or through it. You write well, and I’m sure this is honing your ability to express yourself more and more efficiently.

  3. The philosophical cow says:

    This post makes me recall what my dear friend Isaac Asimov once said, “You must keep sending work out; you must never let a manuscript do nothing but eat its head off in a drawer. You send that work out again and again, while you’re working on another one. If you have talent, you will receive some measure of success – but only if you persist.” Life without letter-rip would be bleak, and as a methane producing cow I know about letting ‘er rip!

  4. shannon smith says:

    I know that I never really comment on your blog, but I check it at least every other day to read up on all the latest news and thoughts by you. I find it refreshing to read something real, that is meaningful and gives me something to take away and think about. I feel that both your and Maryanne’s blogs have helped me to feel closer to both of you. I’m not sure that you have known that up until now….. I love your blog. Please continue!! I need you to show me how to set one up….I tried and it was a horrible disaster. Love ya!

  5. Jo Smo says:

    I do come around! You just normally don’t see me because, as your typical Jo Smo, I am often quite invisible. Besides, if you were to quit blogging, where would you get your daily dose of annoying sarcasm? I mean, I guess you’ve still got the Rabbi for that, but…everyone knows I taught him everything he knows.

  6. maryanne helms says:

    Susanna-I read your blog, and enjoy it, and need it to function in life:) I always enjoy seeing the inner workings of people through their writings on blogs….very interesting stuff. Keep it up!Love,Maryanne

  7. Grace says:

    Booo..don’t end your blogging…since you never answer your phone it’s the only way that I know what is going on with you!

  8. Mella says:

    Whew – you scared me for a minute there, Susanna! Keep posting, but in your own time, and never as a chore. I haven’t had much time for writing on my own page in the past month, come to think of it. I should do that.

  9. Neo says:

    Rose – Hey now, don’t quit that easily! We all go through that period. Remember when I didn’t want to post my pict? Then I did? Hmmm wait, you might not have been around when I posted it.Anyways, I know how hard it is to come up with stuff to talk about, or fear telling too much of yourself to strangers. But if you take a breath once and awhile and step away from the keyboard you’ll feel that spark again.:)Hope all is going good with your little package. Hang in there buddy.Have a great weekend!Peace & Hugs,- Neo

  10. jentine says:

    Hey susannaThis is the first time i have made a comment on a blog (how special). I’m glad you are not quitting because your blog (which i read often) is a great way to keep some contact with you, the girl from georgia, where the peaches grow….

  11. Susanna Rose says:

    Jentine!!! Wow! I’m so glad you’ve been coming around and thanks for posting! That means so much to me!!! Let me know your email address again if you get a chance and I’d love to know how wedding plans are coming! Hope all is well…hope we are in touch soon!Love SUsanna

  12. Anonymous says:

    Hey,The wedding plans are coming… slowly. it’s so much work… I have one more exam and then I am done school, how wierd is that? I’m done school. Then I’ll have to focus on the wedding and make myself a dress, it’s going to be busy but fun. Email me at jentine@gmail.com.xoxo

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