Why? Well first of all, we both feel that posting, even if just once a week, takes up an unnecessary amount of time and energy not only due to the time it takes to pen our thoughts but also because once that little blurb is up, we become slaves to our inboxes. Who’s going to comment today? Why did I have 9 comments last week and only 2 this time? Why doesn’t Jo Smo ever come around anymore?
Secondly, there’s the vulnerability factor of blogging. We both feel squeamishly uncomfortable with how open and available we make our lives and/or thoughts to a sometimes ambiguous public. Add the fact that our readers, whether they realize it or not, form an opinion of us as bloggers and we then feel constant pressure to live up to that image…I the poignant thinker/writer, she the star mom/hospitable homemaker. Only a tiny, tidy facet of our lives is characterized but it becomes the basis of who we feel we must be when we write and thus pleasure can become a chore.
A third discouragement at least for me is that I really feel that as my blog has failed in the purposes I had for it. I knew nothing would come at once but with the time, thought and energy I have often spent in a post hoping to generate something seemingly relevant or thought provoking, it has obviously not caught on. I honestly am so thankful for those readers of mine that faithfully come around (kudos to Mella and Neo:) …especially as I have been so shamefully poor in my posting regularity both hear and to your blogs but it still remains that I absolutely yearn to feel Letter-Rip has a purpose and can earn discussion. To have discussions on this blog and thus to feel more philosophical posts were worth while would be incredible!
These are all reasons to quit but I believe that my sister and I should not let the pressures and vulnerabilities we may feel defeat us but rather continue to nurture our humble forums for the sake of our enjoyment if nothing else.
I also believe that as wives and mothers (well, almost the latter on my part anyways;) it is healthy to have an outletwhere we can derive strength, encouragement and confidence from using our writing abilities.
As I was reminded of today after reading “The Awakening” by Kate Chopin for school, our individual gifts and talents for which we derrive pleasure should be expended as much for our own enjoyment as for that of others. In this sense we do not have to be performers, limited by what we feel are others expectations, but we can just be little people doing what we like to do and that is freeing!
Here’s to many more posts!