A few months before I met Rick, I was having a particularly bad “I’m lonely and really want to meet my guy” kind of day. I was sitting on the floor in my room, reading through 1Samuel, chapter 1 and was struck by the deep and earnest vow Hannah makes to God concerning her desire for a son. She prays, “O Lord Almighty, if you will only look upon your servant’s misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a son, then I will give him to the Lord for all the days of his life…”
After reading this verse, I felt bold and picking up a small piece of paper and pen, proceeded to copy it down, substituting husband for son and serving the Lord together for all the days of our lives instead of vowing to give him up in service to God. Okay, I must admit I was a little afraid to write down that one…when the right guy came along, I didn’t want to lose him!:) I picked this piece of paper up often and felt encouraged that just like Samuel’s faithful mother, my barren heart would be satisfied in good time. It was of course and more quickly then I could have imagined!
Last Christmas, I was again inspired to pray this prayer, unleashing my desires for some friends in our area. I often felt isolated from long time friends as well as the few women I was meeting at church. So I prayed and with as much fervency as before, asked God to grant me a few, close friends at church or else where. A friend in Canada prayed this prayer with me and we kept it in our thoughts regularly. Weeks and months went by…circumstances did not seem to be changing. I ashamedly wondered “why God? When are you going to act?”
As usual, the wait seemed long, disconcerting and often hopelessness blinded my weak faith. Perhaps it was when I suddenly realized I was not giving enough of myself to others that circumstances began to change…I ‘m not exactly sure but with out a doubt they did, as surely as I had been blessed with my future husband 2 years before. I now feel I have several good friends at church; women I can rely on and feel encouraged by their godliness, baby advice, hospitality, etc.
I thank God for Hannah’s prayer. I thank Him that His word holds just as much power and truth today as 2 thousand years ago. I thank Him for the waiting periods in life because when they are all over, the lessons learned are eternal and the joy of answered pleas priceless!