Depressed vs. Grateful

As I have been attempting to access this week the common triggers of my depression, I know in part, it comes down to a lack of sincere gratefulness. Not a conscious oversight but with such a tendency to get lost in the gloom, I miss out on the glorious sunshine around me. I wanted to record here not only what I am most grateful for but also why!
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God’s mercy: God has saved me and now looks on me as absolutely, 100% clean of sin and guilt. He has extended His full riches to me and a wretched sinner becomes a saint, clothed in white robes. He is not repulsed by my weaknesses…He does not demand we become more than our weaknesses in order to come to Him and lay our lives before Him. He simply says “Come all you who are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest. Come lay your burdens upon me, for my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” I can not wrap my mind around it but yet I must accept it and believe it because it is true and real and MINE to enjoy!

God’s providence: God knows what is best of His children. He gives us those things that will refine us, takes away those things which will refine us more by not being a part of our lives. He leads us to places beyond our grasp and always has a plan, even if it is simply learning to trust Him more. When pain hits us, it is not His intention to hurt us but to look to Him, trust His plan and grow, grow, grow…become more focused on our eternal home.

Jesus: The Son of God, The Lamb of God, Messiah, Son of Man……He accepted His Father’s plan and, though sinless, came to earth in the very human form of those He was going to save! He could have come to earth in the form of the most magnificent, angelic, perfect form but that He didn’t! He was loathed from the very start when King Herod sought to kill Him before He ever had the chance to do His father’s work on this earth. He never chose the limelight…he healed the sickest of individuals and told them “not to tell anyone.” His lineage was full of messed up people just like you and I. He showed love and compassion to the harlot. Even Judas, whom He knew was to give Him over to His crucifiers, got grace-filled treatment from Him even to the end. He wore thorns dug in his skull and nails in his hands and feet…but what really set His death apart was that He wore sin when He Himself was perfect. He wore the sin of billions. “It is finished!” He cried out and with that, there was no more work to be done. We were set free! Thank you for saving me!

My heritage: My parent’s were both the first in their families to come to faith. Both were raised with out a knowledge of God. But in generations before them, there were godly men and women. Men and women who were surely praying for a rich heritage. Well, though God may have been forgotten for a generation or two, the prayers of the past were answered. My parents came to know Christ and made it their greatest priority to teach us what it is to follow Christ always. Now, another generation is being raised up in the ways of the Lord. Would this generation too be faithful to Him!

My husband: I am continually amazed at the how well God knew whom I needed as a soul-mate! Rick continually challenges me in his quiet yet determined approach to life, his faith which is much more grounded in actions than it is is words…when he does speak, wisdom is ALWAYS on his tongue! He loves me even when it might seem to me all I “deserve” is wrath and a good lecture, he knows how to lead our family and I can be confident in his judgements and in his care. We both waited, neither one of us dated around and I can surely say my wait was so worth it! God, thank you for a husband of integrity who loves me in a cherishing manner.

Micah: My son…I have been refined, he has been refined. God has used me for him and him for me. His strong-willed temperament has sometimes seemed overwhelming to me but then I see my own sin before my Father in Heaven and I am reminded I am no better. I have been home with this little guy since day one and know so much about how he works and love the joy, enthusiasm and wonder he exudes. Life is nothing to be disappointed with…Micah wants to grasp it all by the horns and run! He loves his sister with a (mostly) tender love, calling her “my baby!” He is still unashamed to shower Rick and I with a multitude of kisses. Thank you God for our son…would He be used by you as a vessel to do great things for your kingdom!

Ellie: A little girl who is so petite yet brimming with the same joy and spunk her brother displays! She loves her mama with great attachment but in recent weeks, is becoming a little braver. A little more able to venture out and be held by others as well! She already seems to instinctively want to be a little helper to me…dishes, cleaning up blocks, etc. I thank God for her and pray also every day for her salvation!

Blessing #3: Yet unborn, we anticipate your arrival and are so thankful for the opportunity to love and raise another child! God keep you safe little one until we meet face to face in about three months!

“How great is your goodness, which you have stored up for those who fear you, which you bestow in the sight of men on those who take refuge in you.”

~Psalm 95:1-6

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7 Responses to Depressed vs. Grateful

  1. Susanna says:

    Obviously there are so many other things I could list to be grateful for…this is just a small start! Funny how long it takes when you really write down WHY you are grateful for things!:)

  2. Adrienne says:

    This is such a wonderful reminder and a good exercise as well! It really does help to put things in perspective when you consider all we have, especially when all you have to do is turn on the computer or tv and see the billions of people that are lost and hurting (i.e. those in Haiti especially right now). We truly have been given so much.

  3. Jody says:

    Reminds me of Nancy Leigh DeMoss' book on gratitude. Far too often we are not grateful but grumbling. This is a great post and helpful to me this time of year.Thank you.

  4. Anna says:

    This is a good reminder, Susanna! Sometimes it is staggering that I am even depressed when I take time to consider all that God has given me.

  5. Grace says:

    ANother great post! You sure do have a lot to be thankful for in your life:)

  6. Anonymous says:

    Well expressed thoughts Susanna, and the kids look so beautiful. Dad

  7. Anonymous says:

    You are blessed, indeed! Mom

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