“He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions, eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me. “
-David Crowder Band
Yesterday was a lonely day. A place or state I am keenly familiar with. A season that seems to present itself often. Sometimes circumstances dictate it and other times, it just seems to be. But God brought a beautiful realization out of it. As I was getting ready for the day, asking God why this thorn seems to be in my side, He whispered these things to me and it was the sweetest gift. I was questioning but in His grace, He tenderly gave me an answer I did not deserve. I heard Him say to me in the depths of my soul:
“It is the state of loneliness that I used to draw you to me when you were young. If it were not for loneliness, you would have found too much meaning and belonging in people. You would not have seen your desperate need for me and so, I drove you to me.”
My Father, Lord, Maker, Redeemer, Defender, Protector and yes, even my BEST FRIEND. He stoops low to be a best friend! Mercy, assurance, grace, LOVE. It was as though God gave me another piece of a rather “undramatic” testimony as well, showing me how He was working even when I was not always aware. Gently drawing a child bathed in the word of God from the beginning of life.
Would I see this thing called loneliness as a gift. A merciful gift from God. Would I stop fighting His plan and when this place or season comes, would I remember how God has used it for good in my life and praise Him for loneliness! Many men have had to suffer much more than this and made it up the mountain to their maker. Tired yes, but they have endured and have not wavered.
As A.W. Tozer wrote about the lonely Christian: “It is this very loneliness that throws him back upon God. His inability to find human companionship drives him to seek in God what he can find nowhere else.”
Amen, Tozer. Amen!:)